From the day of conception, I knew you were on your way. I knew you would be my boy. I knew how much we already connected through dreams and how much we would love each other. With every cell and heart string within me.. From every growth milestone, to listening in on my body system steadily at work to protect and harbor to nourish you. From the tiny kicks to the hiccups and night time parties at 3am, my body and mind were preparing and growing more in love with you. Then as the days became closer and shorter, my mind became restless, my fears became present and my body not only grew round, but became slower. From walking, sitting, standing, to sleeping, everything hurt or seem so difficult. I felt like time seemed so minuscule, and the finish line seemed so far fetched. But I knew you and my body were simultaneously transitioning for your debut and you obviously liked your home within me. But with each breath, contraction and push brought us closer in union. It's was a Saturday night, January 28th, 2017 at 11:17pm you came 'Earthbound'.
There you were weighing in at 8lbs2oz and 21inches long in this big crazy world. From your whaling cry, to your chubby cheeks and wrinkly hands, I was in awe! I still can't believe your life and what our bodies (women) are capable of! We build bones, eyeballs and brains and that's POWERFUL magic! BIRTH always amazes me and seems so surreal even when I am supporting other women. Your birth still plays back in my mind and all my children's BIRTHdays will as they do for every Womens.
As much as I hoped for a positive home transition, you decided for the next 7 weeks that this world was too stimulating and overwhelming for you. But mommy and daddy understood and stayed patient. We knew these things take time and would t happen over night. So we kissed, held and held you tight with our beating hearts loving you so hard. This wasn't easy adjusting to a new life realm and leaving your home where you resided for 274 days. That time frame may have seemed short to some, but big for any tiny human.
These 8months of your life earthside you have been my wise little teacher. I've realized that if I blink too fast you will be a grown man and I may miss out.
So each day that begins and ends, I've promised to embrace your whole being. To feel and smell your baby skin still raises my oxytocin levels. The first time I heard your first laugh, or see your first smile gave me goose bumps. Each day when I rise up, there you are ready to conquer with love with your great big smile from ear to ear. You give me butterflies and make my heart race. Every outing together stealing the hearts with those bright blue eyes that stops complete strangers in their tracks to tell me how beautiful you are. You are my star that lights up this Earth and will someday do great things!
From those hard days at the beginning you screamed at me and told to drop my ego and reminded me that the house duties and work will all still be there when I'm old and wrinkly. So yeah, I get it. You are my teacher and I am constantly learning and listening, as I hope one day you will show the mutual respect to listen to your elders.
By: Natasha Baker,CD/PCD(DONA),RYT
Photo Credit: 🦋Flutterby Photography 🦋
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